february
my month of february and a search for meaning
february has
crushed my spirits
dazzled my demons
in unfavorable positions
putting me in nightmarish scenes
that do not seem
to have a pause button
every day
the universe
sends out a message
proposing extinction
maybe i should’ve accepted the fate
but i was told not to
by empathetic personalities
that i thought were rarities
in a world
conquered by heartlessness
amplified by negativity
Portions of which have shaped my internal dialogue
writing thousands of different scripts
that are insanely overwhelming
to my already vanquished nervous system
which feeds into constant burnout
effectively destroying my capability to function
an immense amount of brain power
is being used to play those scripts out
with each one of them having different outcomes
unfortunately
all scenarios lead to eventual death
therefore
it is vital
that the well-being
gets a taste of joy
and satisfaction
installed
on our ground
i yearn for my existence
to not be messed with
by the devil
who roots against
my humanity
i have a dream
to chase my personal legend
that the universe
has assigned to me
i would love a humanity
where people can feel safe
and secure
while building community
within each other
my contributions that i desire
is enough value
for me to stay put
maybe the people were right
why should i let myself disappear
when i have these envisioned plans
that await me
and my depressive episode
that shall be cured
sooner
rather than later
pretend this month didn’t exist
burn it to the ground
let the smoke remind the soul
that you have so many opportunities
yet to be released
let this be the beginning
of a man
who will make his mom
weep so many happy tears
when he wins his first court case
wearing his navy blue suit
in the glorious courtroom
yes, this is my first post in 2 months… i don’t even know how i still have a fan base. i’ve been in a massive writing slump. and in a dark place mentally. hopefully i can begin to start to post more often.
Justice is Healing. Justice is Happiness. Let this month be remembered for Justice.
Rey, this was absolutely memorizing. I’m so proud of you and your talents!! 💝